As a kid growing up in a dysfunctional, upper-class home, I never knew Christ or the power of His love. I soon found my refuge in drugs and alcohol and a lifestyle of my own dysfunction and pain. After all, hurting people hurt people. I moved to Omaha to start over. I got sober and received Christ as Lord and Savior on my knees in a car wash in West Omaha. My journey with the Lord began. I couldn’t get enough and after 3 years, with 3 children now and married, I decided to go to Bible College. I enrolled at Grace University in ’96 and was looking to serve God fulltime with all my life. However, I was still an alcoholic and drug addict and had not yet dealt with all the drama from my past. I excelled at Grace, starting their soccer program and working for the admission department. At the time Grace was ministry partners with Dawson McCallister and I began working with him as well as Grace, thinking if God put this on my plate I can handle it. After a year of flying all over the country doing Dawson McAllister student conferences and working for Grace I began to break. I quit and started selling cars at a local dealership. After 7 months of being at the dealership I was indicted by the federal government on Bank fraud and money laundering charges. I had fallen from hero to zero. I once was on this radio station promoting something with Grace weekly now was  on my way to federal prison. After 3.5 years I was released and sent back to Omaha. But the shame and guilt of my past, the pain of my choices, and the lack of healing that had not taken place in my heart lead me right back to the drugs and the alcohol. 15 years with a degree from Grace and having worked in ministry for 2 years, I became a hardened drug addict and drug dealer. 15 years I spent serving “the god of this world.” Going to prison 4 more times and compromising my beliefs and my integrity daily. In 2018 during a brief period of sobriety I fell and broke my back. 6 compression fractures 3 crushed discs and 42 days in UNMC. God was showing me His grace. In Titus it says “God’s grace teaches us to say no” God was beginning to restore me. After 6 months I could walk with a walker but now was addicted to pain medicine and my hope was gone again. For about 3 months I went back to my old ways but something had changed. Phil. 1:6 says “He who began a good work in you will be faithful to complete it.” God was beginning to restore me. Today my relationship with Christ has been restored. My life is better than I could have ever dreamed. I’m marrying the woman of my dreams on May 26 in Lake Tahoe. I work at a drug and alcohol treatment center sharing my experience and my hope with those who are living the life I once chose. I run 20 miles a week and work out daily…. Jesus healed my back.. I have completed 82 credit hours towards my degree to become a certified drug and alcohol counselor by the same state who sent me to prison 3 times. I have a 3.87 GPA. Today “the Joy of the lord is my strength.” Just as Eph. 3 20 says… My life is a testimony to God’s grace, His mercy, and His love. God will never give up on any of us….and will “restore the years the locust have eaten” (Joel 2 :23). Surrender is the key to Victory.

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